[ he's not doing this over text when he can barely text properly. and sano deserves a proper explanation. ]
Not long after I got here, there was a big gang war in the town I was living in. A lot of people got hurt. Places got wrecked. The town made it through, but it was . . . rough.
The guy who orchestrated it — [ there's a long pause. ] — he gave me a choice.
[ he had no way of knowing. he does get that. but the fear hit him so squarely in the chest that sakura had no way of digging himself out. at least sano had people here. who did sakura really have?
he misses makochi. he misses having a place that . . . cared about him. and here, who does, really?
it's uncomfortable being here and douman left him. would sano say the same thing too? is sakura just forever this, an uncomfortable thing to be left behind by friends and family? ]
You're my friend. I wanna . . . be friends. But I'm still scared. Still . . .
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right? just like how you're not supposed to like me.
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none of that is true
i get to decide who i like and who i'm friends with
be serious
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and it's all true. they weren't lying.
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this is bullshit
i'm not in love with you i just want to be your friend
it was a stupid mistletoe kiss it didn't mean shit
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hm. this is going badly sldkfjsdlfjdfjs
crying,,, i'm sure it'll be fine,,,
you wanna risk that?
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want
to
be
your
FRIEND
get it through your thick skull already
gods can't have romances with humans
well we're not having a romance are we?
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obviously!!
2/2 END
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your wish you mean?
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hang on. i'm switching to voice.
[ he's not doing this over text when he can barely text properly. and sano deserves a proper explanation. ]
Not long after I got here, there was a big gang war in the town I was living in. A lot of people got hurt. Places got wrecked. The town made it through, but it was . . . rough.
The guy who orchestrated it — [ there's a long pause. ] — he gave me a choice.
He would call it off . . . if I went with him.
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I don't get it. You followed him here?
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But people were getting hurt. My upperclassman. My friends.
And he said — [ sakura swallows tightly. ] — That I was dragging them down with me. That they wouldn't be hurt.
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[Sano's voice is quiet.]
You wished you wouldn't be able to hurt them anymore? Is that it?
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[ a shuddering breath. ]
And I'm not strong enough to do that.
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[Does he dare speak it out loud? They wished for the same thing...]
I get it. I really do.
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You do?
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[Does that mean...it is better if he and Sano aren't friends?]
I wasn't trying to put you at risk. I guess...I just wasn't thinking. I'm sorry...
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And . . . it's not mine either.
[ he had no way of knowing. he does get that. but the fear hit him so squarely in the chest that sakura had no way of digging himself out. at least sano had people here. who did sakura really have?
he misses makochi. he misses having a place that . . . cared about him. and here, who does, really?
it's uncomfortable being here and douman left him. would sano say the same thing too? is sakura just forever this, an uncomfortable thing to be left behind by friends and family? ]
You're my friend. I wanna . . . be friends. But I'm still scared. Still . . .
[ pathetic. ]
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[Sano would hate nothing more. He feels his heart ache. The pain needles at him.]
There's no rule against gods being friends with humans. We're just...friends.
And...I don't want to be anything else.
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I ain't scared of you. Even when your brother dropped that, I wasn't. I don't care what you are. That's never mattered.
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[Oh, Sano's blood boils. His voice drops low, seething.]
You know. I'd really appreciate it if everyone quit talking for me.
Do me a favor, Sakura. Don't listen to them when they say my name.
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[ he can understand the feeling. ]
I'm listening to you.
we can wrap abubuubububu
Thanks.
I'll...see you later, alright? Soon.
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wrapped!