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So...

[Sano's voice is quiet.]

You wished you wouldn't be able to hurt them anymore? Is that it?

Yeah. I wanted . . . to protect them.

[ a shuddering breath. ]

And I'm not strong enough to do that.

Sakura-kun...

[Does he dare speak it out loud? They wished for the same thing...]

I get it. I really do.

[ huh. that's surprising. ]

You do?

Yes. And I don't want to hurt you either.

[Does that mean...it is better if he and Sano aren't friends?]

I wasn't trying to put you at risk. I guess...I just wasn't thinking. I'm sorry...

It wasn't your fault.

And . . . it's not mine either.

[ he had no way of knowing. he does get that. but the fear hit him so squarely in the chest that sakura had no way of digging himself out. at least sano had people here. who did sakura really have?

he misses makochi. he misses having a place that . . . cared about him. and here, who does, really?

it's uncomfortable being here and douman left him. would sano say the same thing too? is sakura just forever this, an uncomfortable thing to be left behind by friends and family? ]

You're my friend. I wanna . . . be friends. But I'm still scared. Still . . .

[ pathetic. ]

I don't want you to be scared of me...

[Sano would hate nothing more. He feels his heart ache. The pain needles at him.]

There's no rule against gods being friends with humans. We're just...friends.

And...I don't want to be anything else.

[ sakura makes a slight scoff. ]

I ain't scared of you. Even when your brother dropped that, I wasn't. I don't care what you are. That's never mattered.

[His--

[Oh, Sano's blood boils. His voice drops low, seething.]

You know. I'd really appreciate it if everyone quit talking for me.

Do me a favor, Sakura. Don't listen to them when they say my name.